Today was the last day.
We weren’t sure if I was going to make it- my wicked cough for the last week led to a sore belly and contractions kept coming and going like the tides. But not regular enough to count. My doctor reminded me again to head to the hospital if my water breaks after we figured out the baby was also getting ready for his big premiere.
Today has been a day of last-minute and last-times… the last breakfast at Coco’s as a family of three, bacon eaten with relish and familiar waitresses asking about how I felt. The last dy of somewhat freedom, Wonder Boy running ahead as I plodded along, Mr. Wonder splitting the distance between the two of us as he has been for months.
Slowly i–things are being charged up and readied, plans made, clothes packed for Wonder Boy so he can get all cleaned up and ready at Nana’s to see his new baby brother. The special new book packed.
Red Vines discovered by Mr. Wonder, who has been practicing running around on a couple of hours of sleep and took the last pictures of a single child Wonder Boy with my humongeous belly.
A memory of the hundreds of kisses our new one has already gotten.
It’s been odd to have a final countdown this time, yet a relief. Gone is the constant worry and readiness, and well-laid out plans hashed out one more time just in case.
A bag is packed ready to go with me to my cesarean tomorrow. A full fridge has been organized and a watermelon the size of my belly cools for an after-dinner treat.
All of it still hasn’t sunken in.
Tomorrow, at this time I will be in a completely different world. One that will envelop my life again and be a constant beat of by days- diapers, cries, pacifiers.
Starting over where I had just enjoyed the last few months of a more careless life- grabbing a water bottle for the car and running off on adventures, just a bag tucked under an arm and a little hand in mine.
The purse is being retired tonight and a diaper bag will again take its place.
The vision of a family with each of my son’s hands in a different parent’s hand is about to change forever- the center of our world is going to shift just a little to one sire to make room for another. hearts will grow even bigger, errands will take even longer, the car will now be full of family.
Next time I am here I will be a mother of two!