“Resilience is accepting your new reality, even if it’s less good than the one you had before. You can fight it, you can do nothing but scream about what you’ve lost, or you can accept that and try to put together something that’s good.”
― Elizabeth Edwards
I have been working on finding my new center in life.
Balance is impossible, but exerting myself from a strong center will make getting it all done possible.
So i started some self care – tracking my sleep on my Fitbit, taking more vitamins, herbs, drinking more tea and less coffee.
Struggled, because the baby steps I needed to take at first drowned under an onslaught I could not manage except to keep my head above water. But yet I did not drown.
Patiently waited while waves of emotions rolled me one way and then another as I waited for my brain and my heart to work on their own rhythm.
I cried at just the right word at the right time, and refused emotion when I could have melted down.
I melted down anyway.
Broke the silence on what I needed instead of stepping way for others.
Created little pockets of safe space, read a couple of books, took off Facebook from my phone, checked emails less often. Spent more time in nature. Bought gym shoes.
My new center from the ashes of our past life.